GoKawiilTask Paralysis & AI
About Task Paralysis
Straight away: I am not diagnosed yet. So I'm hesitant to say "I have ADHD", because, truth is: I don't know it. There are, however, signs: My siblings have been diagnosed as kids, and I'm personally struggling with tasks that others deem to be "easy". I have a tremendous need for novelty, and I can hardly picture myself doing the same job for the next 30 years.
I'm not kidding: At the moment, I change roles every 2-3 years. That isn't really sustainable. Due to circumstances that were out of my control, I wasn't able to tackle that earlier. Also, it doesn't really help if you want to build a career: I can navigate myself around a lot of technical fields, but I have no special knowledge.
Also, quite often, I struggle with the execution of a strategy that I successfully laid out. I will simply refuse to do the first step, because everything now feels overwhelming.
So... there are signs. Yes. But that might be another article.
Also, there is something called Analysis Paralysis. But that's different, at least to me and to my understanding. And yes, I also had that, but for a really short period of time. Let me put it this way: When Analysis Paralysis kicks, my brain will run in circles. When Task Paralysis kicks, my brain doesn't run at all. That sucks.
About AI
I won't go as far and say that I HATE AI. I just shelled out almost 100 € in tokens (Max-plan for Claude) to code a game. And an iOS App. Because I need the latter and want the former. But I see all the bad stuff that comes with AI: People are loosing their jobs, loosing themselves. Art gets stolen, and suddenly, piracy isn't piracy any longer once large companies are doing the deed. That feels weird, to say the least.
(I grew up in the 2000s 👴, so I have some knowledge about piracy from back in the days.)
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